While in my early days of high school, I read one of my favorite books of all time, The Cider House Rules by John Irving. I quickly started seeking out other books by John Irving, and managed to start and never finish both The World According to Garp and A Prayer for Owen Meany. In my quest to read all of the books I have never completed on my bookshelf, the time came to reopen the world of Owen Meany and figure out why I was never able to finish this book all those years ago. After finally finishing it this time, I can’t quite answer the question as to why I couldn’t get through it the first time, but I think the direction from which I came at the book this time around made the reading experience, while more difficult in some ways, much more satisfying when my journey was complete.
The novel starts out by introducing us to John Wheelwright, of the Gravesend Wheelwrights, a long line of distinguished citizens and influencers within the Northeast. John Wheelwright is the narrator of the story and is relating his tale as a middle-aged gentleman living in Canada and talking about his best friend from childhood, Owen Meany. Owen is a small boy, and by small he means physically small rather than young, with a voice that, upon hearing it, you will never forget. Owen considers himself to be an instrument of God after a foul ball that he hits in a Little League game kills John’s mother. He feels that God has taken his hands for a higher purpose and he will see that mission through, whatever it takes.
The early parts of the book are lighthearted recountings of John’s childhood with Owen – the games they played, the people they encountered – and winds through the timeline with no regard to linearity. And while it may sound like a distracting way to read a novel, Irving’s chapters (none of which are shorter than 40 pages) are aptly titled to explain an object, or an event, that eventually ties together beautifully with the climax of the novel. The later chapters are told in strict chronological order, and the shift creates a sense of building tension until the finale, leaving the reader slightly in awe of how Irving managed to take all of the blatant hints and seemingly meaningless events and create a master plan that couldn’t have simply come from his imagination.
With a title like A Prayer for Owen Meany, it can readily be assumed that this book does not have an entirely happy ending. In fact, the ending of the book is stated matter-of-factly throughout the novel in various ways, however the exact circumstances do not come to fruition until the last pages. But the force with which the ending hits you made me grateful that I was at home by myself as I read the last pages, because I was sobbing for these characters that I had grown to love.
But the most important impact this book has on the reader stems from the master plan that Owen believes God has for him. I was raised in the Lutheran church, and beginning in my junior year of high school, I began to have what my mother considered to be a crisis of faith. It started out as merely a question of whether the Lutheran church was the right place for me, or whether the other various denominations of Christianity held something different, something more, that would strengthen my connection with God as well as my earthly community. Through learning history in school and reading books on the subject, I began to fully understand the atrocities that had been committed in the past in the name of Christianity and also to recognize the cracks in the current system, particurlarly in the Catholic church. And then, with an Introduction to Islam class my sophomore year of college, I fully understood for the first time how at their core, Judaism, Christianity and Islam were the same religion with the same set of core principles to hopefully lead them to a glorious afterlife with the same God. And yet the wars and the bloodshed and the hypocrisy are rampant in each of these, and I decided then and there that I would remove myself from the religious community. I would like to say at this point that I have no prejudices against any person that practices any of these religions, rather having moral and ethical issues with the religious dogma. I have to admit that I do have issues with the hypocrites and the fanatics, however I recognize that these people come from every religion, and so again can be traced back to a flaw in the system. While I deeply wanted to believe that a higher power existed, I couldn’t quite come to grips with how to identify this being as the notions that I entertained to personify this nameless power stemmed from my Christian upbringing. And so I chose the path of agnosticism, later told by a friend that I was more of a deist, and thought I had put the issue to bed.
But during the course of reading this book, an event in my personal life shook me to the very core, and I found myself angry and frustrated and wanting someone to blame. And I felt, for the first time in a very long time, that there actually was someone to blame, or to question, to try and make sense of an event that just didn’t seem to fit in the puzzle of my life. For I still want to believe that I have a path as well, and while it may not be as apparent and righteous as the path that Owen was put upon, it is mine, and I realized that I desparately want to find it again.
I feel fortunate that I have this book as part of my personal book collection, and feel that at some point later in my life I will be revisiting Owen and John, hoping to take another piece of wisdom from their story. 5 out of 5 stars.